Greetings Friends~
Here is a picture that personifies how I feel when I go off my diet. I'm the one in the middle who appears surprised that someone is snapping my photo. All I heard, as I was rooting through the feed trough, was someone yelling, "Say slop." Yikes, the evidence is indisputable.
Of course I am being less than serious about the picture but not the behavior. I can't, for the life of me, figure out why I do the things that I do. I'm not a psychiatrist, nor do I play one on TV, but if I spent some time on their couch, I bet that they would tell me some costly and enlightening things about myself.
I get these monstrous cravings. It's like I've been smoking pot and now I have the munchies. Any food will do but the non-diet kind is the most desirable. I start out slow and then the chomping builds to a frenzy. Afterwards I am satiated but the level of hatred that I feel for myself is huge. Why am I so weak? Why can't...wait...why DON'T I control these urges?
I really wish that I had an answer here but I don't.
Maybe it is because I have bad foods around the house that tempt me. No, that really isn't it either because I can do a gorge-fest with half a box of Raisin Bran, a couple of bananas and a quart of skim milk.
Maybe it is because I am hungry. No, I could eat a horse for dessert if I got the desire.
Maybe it is because, deep down inside, I am so insecure about being the new skinnier version of myself that I constantly sabotage the diet. Come on Chet, get real. The only insecurity I have about being 180 pounds is whether or not I can finally keep it off and I'll cross that bridge when I get there.
Like I said, I really wish I had an answer. I suppose I'll have to start wearing a fat, tight rubberband around my wrist and everytime I feel like heading to the trough, I'll snap the living crap out of it till I can't even lift my arm to open that bag of cookies...or make those pigs in a blanket. Oink oink.
Such is the burden of being on a diet. My name is Chip and I am a food-aholic.
Inspiration of the Day
Don't make excuses - make good. - Elbert Hubbard
Recipe of the Day
A dish filled with flavors and ingredients so wonderful that this can't possibly be diet, but it is. http://www.recipezaar.com/Ww-Core-Italian-Chicken-Cacciatore-156634
Link of the Day
Don't forget your Last Chance workout this weekend. I can't wait for Monday to see how many members get their weight to me without being asked. My small step for the day is to do something productive tonight when I get home from the gym instead of laying on the couch.
One Step at a Time may not get you there today but if you stick with the journey, you will get there eventually.
Happy Trails!
4 comments:
Chip,
Your blogs this week have hit home with me. I too have not had much time to get to the gym ( a short 30 minute drive, one way). I did not go at all this week. I did have time to work out in my living room, which I figure is better than nothing. I too am a food addict, we are not alone in this addiction. We have spent a lot of time on the out of control side of this addiction. We have spent much less time on the healthy in control side.We wouldn't be taking this journey if we had it figured out.The important part I think is that we have quit denying we have a problem, and we are working toward managing our addiction. I worry all the time about how I am going to stay at goal when I get there, or even if I am ever going to get there. You are not alone in your thoughts about this.
Hi Chip and everyone,
I actually made the pigs in a blanket this week! I have decided to send all the NutriSystem stuff back to them for a full refund. I have been sick since I started eating their "food". I can do this on my own... I know what I should eat and how much. I have walked this path many times and could recite every item on the Mediterranean diet, which by the way sounds like heaven after 4 days on NutriSystem! I am also a food addict, and came very close to calling Chip one day after work. I had gone to Mega Foods and shopped and I could hardly wait to get home to my quiet house where I could eat to my hearts content with no one there to see! But I didn't call Chip, I kept on driving. When I got home, I laid out all the food I wanted to eat and started! The good thing is I got full before even coming close to the visions I had while driving home. But I worry about those visions ... of how happy and content I knew I would feel with all this fabulous food at my fingertips! What a wierd thing this addiction is! I want to find a good food addiction counselor and see what kind of enlightenment I can get about why I do this. In the meantime, I'm packing up all the pitiful NutriSystem packages and shipping them back to Nevada where they belong!
Rebecca~ I know how you feel about staying at goal. I've been there before and wasn't able to maintain. Maybe we should take a lesson from Dave. If we continue to be active and eat healthy then we should be able to maintain it. I read an article on the website for the Joy Fit Club (a group of people who have all lost a hundred pounds or more)and a woman on there maintained her weight loss for over 10 years so far. She said that she ate healthy and worked out six days a week. One the seventh day she allowed herself to eat whatever she wanted and as much as she wanted. Her feeling was that first of all, she couldn't eat anywhere near the quantities she had in the past, and second, since she continued to workout and eat right the other days, everything evened out. She said the key was to pick ONE day, like Saturday, to make your "special" day. No switching back and forth or adding extra days because that is how the backsliding starts. She said that if there was a holiday like Thanksgiving, she would give up her "special" day the week before and the one that week. I think this idea has real merit. I'm a LONG way from that point yet so I'll cross that bridge when I get there. Thanks for posting your comment.
Lee~
I'm glad you are sending it back. While I think that Nutri-Systems certainly can work for people, I am turned off by the commercialism of it. I believe that you can do the same principle on your own. I know you to be an extremely intelligent person so devise your own plan. Take the time to sit down, think about meals and write down what you come up with. Such as Breakfast - (give yourself some variety and choices)- oatmeal, yogurt with grape nuts, an english muffin with cheddar cheese melted on it, etc. If your list contains lots of variety, you shouldn't get bored. Lunch - Sally pointed out awhile ago that Lean Cuisines are great portion control. We also like the Eating Right brand that Safeway carries. I usually have one of those and an apple one day then a chicken or shrimp salad the next, with an apple. Dinner - Plan ahead and you can come up with lots of healthy ideas. DON'T forget snacks. Make a list of things like Light popcorn, celery with (light) Laughing Cow cheese, etc. Remember to drink lots of water. If you need some ideas, let me know. I can give you a million of them. Stay strong Kiddo and call me if you need a sponsor!
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